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Wednesday, July 21, 2004

torn.

'at times i struggle with pride, so i tend to believe that i have earned any love i receive. pride tells me that i am loved only when i am lovable, respectable, and worthy. At other times i feel the tug of fear. deep down inside, i know that i don't deserve the love i get. my motives are never pure, and i fear i will be rejected if they are exposed. so even while i am basking in acceptance, i live with the fear of being unmasked, revealing that i am much less than what others think me to be yet god does not love us because we deserve it, he loves us inspite of what we are'.(adapted from our daily bread, july20) smile because you know god loves you and i'll love you!

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Monday, July 05, 2004

torn.

hello! today was a good fine day. i want with jessalynn and luloo to ps to catch a movie but there were no tickets left. so we went on to pizza hut's for lunch. it was funny when jessalynn was asking for the bill she was like "where's e black black book?" haha. it was such a wonderful sunday! my family and daph's family went to malaysia to ride horses while her dad and mine played golf. the horses there were stubbon but overall the day was great! it was horses the whole day!:)
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Thursday, June 24, 2004

torn.

hello. time really is something so unpredictable. it comes whenever it pleases and leaves whenever they think is right. it seems only yesterday when i locked up my locker firmly, packed my school bag and left the gates of knowledge, the second "home". now, i am siting here waiting to head back to the early rise each and every day. i am kind of drading the opening of school, as it would mean no tv, no early horse riding, no waking up late and no freedom.
i look back now and realised i did quite alot of things during this 4 weeks. i learnt many things and had my part of fun and joy. well, guess it's back to school for me! :)
//oh my god! guess what everyone this song playing now is sang by a 13 year old(the same age as i am) surprise huh... i don't even have half her singing talent. enjoy//
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Wednesday, June 09, 2004

torn.

hello. holidays are here!! well hipe you all enjoy it! i watched he day of tmr i know i know u must be thinking what a lame show to watch. but the truth is it was good. i had a heavy heart at first when i was to watch this show but omg to my astonishment it was nice. i watched harry potter too.well this one was rather funny. quite dissapointing acturlly but it was all right. oh no i sound lyk i am writing a movie review haha anyways happy holidays k :D

i did not understand why you could not see the tears in my eyes. i cried in strangest of ways. i cried for you.
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Wednesday, May 26, 2004

torn.

As it creeps to ur door step wanting an answer, waiting for reply you may not know it. an oblivious you hears it's cry and unlocks the door. it comes in without a thought it takes control of you. the it is loneliness. it makes you depressed, sad and helpless. soon just when you thought it will never end and decides to leave this earth, somehow, comes along a friend . she lends you a shoulder to cry on, an attentive ear to hear you out, a bright smile to keep the darkness away. she may not be perfect ,no one is but to you she is the window, the window to a brighter, happier tomorrow. love all your friends you'll never knw when it will come knocking on your door.

today
today was miss lau's(geog teacher) last leson with us. she's very nice to the class. we did a little farewell thing where everyone whould do sumthing just for her. the class was sad but nevertheless, everyone pitched in to make the lesson a fun and gleeful one. we sang songs, danced and joked. well tmr i would have to learn how to wear a sarong it's a sch thing. 10 ppl from the each class had to do it. it's was kind of a lucky draw thing but daphne and i were the "lucky" ones to get picked. at first we were kinda sad and unhappy abt the pick but then our frieds decided to jion it with us. thank you so much jess, loo, cai, abbo, main... thank you for accompanying us.so i guess we r gonna learn how to wear this sarong thing tmr. let's see what tmr has for us then. :) smiles!
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Thursday, May 20, 2004

torn.

hello again. it's hard sometimes to fit something so small and unreal into minds like our's. Trust me. the human mind is built in such a complex way that sometimes a little word goes a long way and eventually stabs you in the heart. but sometimes words can bring you joy and happiness.such sweet feeling. kind and pleasent.so to everyone a simple word can change a person's emotions. don't steal away a person's happiness instaed double it.
recently i have been trying to fit in knowledge, knowledge of the text in school books into me. hard? yes. but if studying is a life long activity then it is rather useless if i give it up. i wanna thank denise for teaching me what situ was.(thank you):)

TODAY
i was taking a bus with daphane and the bus was conjested with ppl. school has been alright so far not as bad as it was in the earlier weeks of school term. looking back it seems so fast that in a head turn it's going to be june soon. thank you my dear friends for helping me pass this few weeks joyfully :) wishing everyone a happy holiday smiles :)
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Friday, May 07, 2004

torn.

hello... don't u think that friends are just so important. they share your joy. hear ur thoughts, spread ur pain, cheer u on. i never can imagine how life will turn out if it was not for my friends. sometimes we have to let our pride go. by saying a simple hello or sorry could make a whole difference. it' s not stress u feel when u r out there wif friends but comfort and warmth. take the ejs for example. whenever we go out together i feel much relexed.
during napfa it was my friends who were there cheering me on, helping me on, pushing me on...(thank you*) school need not be just books. but friends. to all my friends ilu and thanks for all that u have given me. thank you smiles
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